Is being single on Valentine's Day really so bad?

Tomorrow will be my first Valentine's day in 8 years that I will for once be single. So much happened yesterday so fast, I had a really bad day...I lost two friends. Never keep your phone by you when you are drinking...drunk texting is never a positive thing it only hurts people and makes you feel like an ass. Everytime I have trouble with a man it's unfortunate but it brings up my ex and makes me even more mad at him that I am now having to deal with situations like this. I was really bummed yesterday and majority of today...you'll be able to tell by the Oreos that will be stuck to ...excuse my french, but my ass. Well it's Friday night and I had a lot of offers to go out and do something, my friends always encourage me to go out when I am feeling down but something told me to stay in tonight. I have the beginnings of a sinus infection so I am not feeling to hot to begin with so I decided to stay in tonight. I ordered pizza by myself for the first time in my life! I rented "Nights in Rodanthe" off of the TV...I lit my candles and sat in my house alone indulging in my little treats. By the way if you haven't seen "Nights in Rodanthe" buy the book by author Nicholas Sparks...it's a quick read, then rent the movie and make sure you have a box of tissues...it's amazing! That's right I said my house, it hit me tonight how fortunate I am...I own my own house and it's well decorated and it is filled with love, I always thought I needed a man in order for my house to be filled with love but no, you just need yourself, your faith, and of course your dog if you have one :) Tonight was the first time I smiled by myself in I don't know how long...and to top things off I am no longer paying for someone's health insurance so my pay check was nice and full today and it felt so good to hold in my hands. So I don't fear tomorrow (Valentine's Day) I will embrace it. Because I don't need a man to love me or to feel loved, because I love myself. And I am extremely lucky you have such loving friends and family to always be there for me. So if you are feeling lonely, order a pizza and watch a movie and just get comfortable with being with just you...it's actually refreshing and it will make you feel like a stronger person.

Just another manic Monday

Why do Monday's have to drag? I think we should start the work week on Tuesday and end it on Thursday...doens't that sound like a good idea?
I consider myself a very mature person, I have always been far more mature than "average"...but I feel like just in the past few weeks I have matured so much more. Life just is...you have to live it day by day and make the best of what's been given to you.
Your life will change every day....it's inevitable, but the question is will you choose to accept the change or fight it? You can only hold back and fight it to a certain level before you will crack and it will ultimately hurt you and maybe others. Take advantage of those in your life that treat you right, have always been there for you and will always be there for you and appreciate them...they are rare. If you don't take advantage of them you will surely miss them when they are gone. Everything happens for a reason and people are sent to us when we need them, they are exactly what you need at that moment in your life, and the one's that stick around that's because they are meant to be there that's why they are in your life, so don't guess or wonder why just know that you need them.
I love this song by Martina McBride...I wish everyone would read these lyrics and remember them every day.
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You wake up from your dream and you don't want to face the day
You can't find a reason to think your world will ever change
You can hide beneath the covers
Or you can run outside head up high and carry on.
Life is a roller coaster ride
Time Turns The Wheel and Love Collides
Faith is believing you can close your eyes and touch the sky .
Shine while you have the chance to shine
Laugh even when you want to cry
Hold on tight to what you feel inside and ride...
It brings you up slowly then shoot you like a rocket towards the ground
it twists and it shakes you before it turns you upside down
You can't see what's around the corner and You can't look back,
so just live it up and feel the rush
Life is a roller coaster ride
Time Turns The Wheel and Love Collides
Faith is believing you can close your eyes and touch the sky .
Shine while you have the chance to shine
Laugh even when you want to cry
Hold on tight to what you feel inside and ride...Ride, ride
Shine while you have the chance to shine
Laugh even when you want to cry
Hold on tight to what you feel inside and ride

Thank God tomorrow is Friday

It's been an interesting week to say the least. I just talked to a few of my best friends who moved off to Mississippi and apparently they saw my twin in Wal-Mart.
I feel very content this week...just really neutral. My iPhone purchase might have been a bad idea it is a HUGE distraction. I haven't had coffee today...yet I feel completly wired. I need to go back to drinking green tea.
I am excited about my 5k this weekend! I just hope it's not too cold that I can't run the entire time again. I use to hate running but it really pulled me from a depression last year. I just love when you run and you don't hear anything but the wind in your ear and the pounding of your feet on the payment and you look out ahead and see the rays of the sun coming in and feel the warmth come over your face...the trees lining the street like a scene from "You've Got Mail", and I just feel blessed and remember all the amazing things and people I have in my life. Running reminds me of that scene from "Forrest Gump" when you run all your worries and fears just fall away like that little boys leg braces did. When I ran my last 5k it was cold, my breathing was off, my knee was hurting, but I just kept going because I envisoned all of my life goals coming true if I could just make it to the finish line. Persistence, Dedication, Motivation...really help keep you positive and can change your mental and physical state in life. If you haven't ran in awhile and you've been looking for some motivation, well just let this be your sign and go do it. Nike had it exactly right...Just do it!

Get it!

So my life has completly taken a 360 since last October. I thought I had the one person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with, we had an amazing relationship...but sometimes people just aren't who you really think they are. God has a plan for me and everything happens for a reason and I truly believe that. I am in the best mental and physical state than I have been since I was a kid. I love to get up and go running in the mornings. I like to go hang out with my friends, dance, drink a little and just have fun. I have a type A personality...I am definitely a planner, but I can also be spontaneous at times and I am learning how to go more with the flow of things. Every day I learn something new and I just embrace it. A lot of people don't understand how I can be so positive, I have been through a lot in my life and especially my most recent challenge...but my mom raised me to seek my faith in times of need and to surround myself with good positive people. I am truly a blonde sometimes. I am currently in school I have a year left for my Bachelors Degree in Business Administration. I can often be very random. I can't wait to see what life has in store for me on my road to discovery.